running your own business is bittersweet

originally published august 2021

i've been in this very indecisive, weird space. (side bar: is it the stormy summer weather? i cant stop listening to summertime sadness.) relying on myself all the time to make allllll the decisions has lead me to a more quite time. it feels unproductive, but i know its not. its part of the gestating process. its been three weeks of this and i am finally remembering that i am allowed to work at my own pace, operate in a way that is sustainable for me (and tryna my best 4 the planet), that my work doesn't have to look like others.

while doubt is not a great feeling - the time and space to reflect eventually leads to clarity and decisiveness. OR im tired of this limbo space and just want to make a decisions! its inevitable that i will make mistakes regardless of how much i research - its how i respond. i would also like to remind myself that there is no such thing as perfection, but there is always room for observation and growth. for instance i dont have the packaging for my olive oil yet, but i got the olive oil recipe. so fuck it! i'll figure out packaging as we go / patiently waiting for the bottles to arrive